mad.to.live

Nebraska NEBraska NEBRASKA

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 12:11:55 -0600

I love you.
Nebraska was one of the best weeks of my life. I’m slowly but surely coming into myself, feeling secure again, and feeling alive. I love the picture below because of the joy I felt in that moment. I finally feel free from all the things that I used to be & the experiences are only getting better with time so I can’t wait to see what this world has in store for me.

I feel inspired to be an actress and motivated to work on my art. I have been hesitant & disconnected for the past few months, I felt the loss of my relationship took my passion for theatre because I thought I didn’t have anyone to share it with anymore but now I know that I can share it with myself & find the joy in it for myself. I also share it with my AMAZING family & friends. I’m developing friendships that just blow my mind. The people that have came into my life are such good people.

It really does get better. I won’t feel good all the time, I know, but I’m latching on hard to the moments that I do feel good. xoxo

Photo

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 12:00:41 -0600

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 14:54:58 -0500

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

old habits die hard..

Sat, 20 Oct 2012 14:53:17 -0500

Today is okay…seriously out of the past 7 days I’ve only had 3 really terrible ones, and honestly thats not that bad. Thats pretty strong I’d say. One day at a time, there’s so much out there, on my good days I feel so excited and ready. I feel very optimistic for the future. I’m thriving in my career right now and it’s perfect timing for the BIG musical coming up. This is my path and everything is falling into place, slowly but surely.

From the wise mind of Ingrid..

“I’m a big girl now, see my big girl shoes, it’ll take more than just a breeze to make me fall overboard.”

xoxo justine liza.

anneyhall: The Boy with the Arab Strap

Mon, 20 Feb 2012 01:22:41 -0600

anneyhall:

The Boy with the Arab Strap

I hope it's over

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 16:51:16 -0600

Welp. January is almost over & I have to say it was the worst month of my life. No dramatization added either. I can only hope that the remaining 11 months of 2012 go ALOT smoother because my body has finally had enough. I’ve been sick for 2 weeks & the finale was a 2-day migraine. NEVER. HAD. SO. MUCH. PAIN. My body was rejecting all the pain & sorrow I had stressed over, I’m sure of it.

These past 5 days have been easily the hardest days of my life yet once I was surrounded by my family the pain lessened.

It’s cool to hear people talk about my grandpa & hear all the stories he’s left behind. I’m frustrated bcuz I’ve been having a difficult time placing my memories I know I have with him. Although I can picture his smile, hear his laugh & especially hear his famous words.

Puts puts was his own Version of a spanking (which I never remember getting a real one from him)

Up yours was what he’d say instead of fuck you which is hilarious. I like that one. I might keep it for myself.

Dipstick was pretty much same as dipshit. God he was cool.

What a guy. Seriously a badass.
Loving & missing my grandpa more than ever.
-Justine

Finding peace & strength so far away from family is very hard. Life has happened in one of the...

Mon, 23 Jan 2012 19:16:14 -0600

Finding peace & strength so far away from family is very hard. Life has happened in one of the most planned weeks I have. I truly don’t believe I’d survive it without the comfort I find when Brady’s around me. Although these deaths have been sad & heartbreaking, it’s strange how such tragedy can bring two people closer together. I’m so happy to be in love with my best friend.

anneyhall: John Lennon recording Tomorrow Never Knows, 1966.

Fri, 11 Nov 2011 10:49:35 -0600

anneyhall:

John Lennon recording Tomorrow Never Knows, 1966.

party's over.

Mon, 24 Oct 2011 11:18:57 -0500

The Wild Party has officially closed. It was such a wonderful experience I feel so grateful that I got to work with those people. It’s incredible how much you can learn from people by just watching their craft. I hope that this isn’t my last muscial at NDSU..in fact I hope that I get cast in all of the ones in the future because that is going to be my major (hopefully). It was all I dreamed of since the 6th grade when I was officially introduced to musical theater. Being on that stage is like nothing else and I feel that I need it so I’m not sad that The Wild Party is over, I’m just excited for next years auditions to arrive. It’s been real.

jauggernaut

Sat, 10 Sep 2011 01:00:52 -0500

So today we had our first dance rehearsal & I was extremely nervous for this process to begin but once we got going I came to realize that my dancing has majorly improved & I really can do these dance numbers. I know we’re just getting started and dont get me wrong, these numbers are hard (& fast) but confidence is building. I like the challenges.

anneyhall: East London, 2011. Sad times.

Fri, 12 Aug 2011 12:53:56 -0500

anneyhall:

East London, 2011.

Sad times.

All at once

Sun, 31 Jul 2011 21:20:40 -0500

We were surprised by how hard, left warry & scared by the nights spent feeling incomplete.

It goes so fast. It seems like nothing lasts. I think I’ve lost something.

And the ever-turning spinning wheel of people, places, lies. I feel the restless beat of the sleepless night to come.

It was all for a woman.

So they’d hold hands looking to the eyes of god. And they’d say, tell me why you’d hide from us? Why you’d fill the world with wickedness? Why you’d spare us from your grace, but not the rod.

So i think of all the years spent alone, its like your searching for something to make you feel whole. Like your half of something else. Just a fraction of yourself.

I can tell you that your all I’ve ever wanted. Dear, i can utter every word you’ve ever hoped to hear. I shudder when i think that i might not be here forever.

And all I can think is that it must be some kind of rebellion—to arm your fears like soldiers and slay them.

Because it’s better to love whether you win or lose or die. Its better to love and I will love you until I die.

-the airborne toxic event lyrics

anneyhall: 1991 letter from Hunter S. Thompson...

Sun, 31 Jul 2011 20:43:02 -0500

anneyhall:

1991 letter from Hunter S. Thompson to writer William McKeen following the release of McKeen’s biography of Thompson.

So brave and funny.

anneyhall: Splash (1984) Lust.

Sun, 31 Jul 2011 20:40:01 -0500

anneyhall:

Splash (1984)

Lust.

anneyhall: Breathless (1960) Truth.

Sun, 31 Jul 2011 13:00:48 -0500

anneyhall:

Breathless (1960)

Truth.

4th of july. Gonna slap a smile on my face. I am no longer going...

Mon, 04 Jul 2011 08:58:45 -0500

4th of july. Gonna slap a smile on my face. I am no longer going to let other ppl affect my emotions. I am shutting that door, to EVERYONE. No expectations, no dissapointments. Perhaps somebody, someday will see what i see and they’ll have the same viewpoint as me but until i find them I’m only going to be looking out for number 1. God bless america.

June 28

Tue, 28 Jun 2011 09:03:59 -0500

Life throws you around but you cant throw around life. God gives and then takes away, thats just the way it goes. Perhaps thats the biggest life lesson to understand before anything else makes sense. I will always see young death as shocking no matter how many young lives I see get taken. The good people get taken early because they have bettered themselves to be the best, the rest of us still have alot of work to do on ourselves. Heaven is full of wonderful people and yesterday gained a beautiful young angel. Rest in peace mariya.

Inspiration

Sat, 14 May 2011 18:29:44 -0500

I watch people perform on tv and i cant help but cry and smile as i watch their dreams unfold. I feel so inspired to live in a country that places the arts so high on a pedestal. People talk about the hard times this country is about to go through but we will not stop performing, i have faith in this. I feel incredibly inspired right now. I will get out there, there is no other option for me and I’m very excited.

Summer has arrived and I’m longing for those late summer nights.

Sat, 14 May 2011 14:55:32 -0500

Summer has arrived and I’m longing for those late summer nights.

wow.

Wed, 27 Apr 2011 00:09:24 -0500

I just need to get it out there that I got a callback for RENT!

WHICH is unbelievably exciting and rewarding.

I feel honored just to be considered for a lead role and will work my ass off to get it tomorrow, lets just pray that it is in my future. I want it so bad!

Hopefully I break a leg! :S